So, for about the past month or so, I’ve been feeling a little torn…

I’ve been contstantly thinking about things and feeling things that I shouldn’t be thinking about and all that stuff.  Great, more drama..

I have a hard time concentrating at work at the tasks I have to do, but I can’t focus… My mind gets distracted and it’s probably not a good thing..  I have a secret… Ha, you thought I was going to tell you huh? I never asked for it to be that way, it just is.  It’s complicated…. VERY Complicated… I’m complicated…  Uggh, I hope guys like complicated girls…

I want to shout it out so bad that I want to burst at times.  But I have to keep my restraint and not open my mouth.  It’s so hard because I’m so podagee…  I like LOVE to talk…

There’s only one other person who knows my secret…. It probably doesn’t go farther than that one person…  Some people have tried guessing… I don’t *think* they know… Maybe they know…  Now I think is where it get’s awkward…

So, I have many many goals for 2009.

I’m a little overwhelmed right now, or this feeling of something that I just can’t get rid of.  Ugghh.. I hate it..

Uggh.. Whatever..

1. Started your own blog
2. Slept under the stars (kind of, in a tent…)
3. Played in a band (well, I was in Orchestra, does that count?)
4. Visited Hawaii (I don’t need to visit.. I LIVE here!)
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disneyland
8. Held a praying mantis
9. Climbed a mountain
10. Sang a solo
11. Bungee jumped.
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch (I taught myself how to code in HTML and I WILL teach myself how to sew)
15. Adopted a child
16. Had food poisoning
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty
18. Grown your own vegetables
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitch hiked
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Run a marathon
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run
32. Been on a cruise
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen an Amish community
36. Taught yourself a new language
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelos David
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted
48.Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling
52. Walked in the rain
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater
55. Been in a movie
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies
62. Gone whale watching
63. Got flowers for no reason
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
67. Bounced a check (opps!)
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten Caviar (Isn’t that like Tobiko?!)
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published in a book (thank you scrapbooking!)
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Read the entire Bible
86. Visited the White House
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating (Not myself personally, but my hubby did)
88. Had chickenpox
89. Saved someone’s life
90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous
92. Joined a book club
93. Lost a loved one
94. Had a baby
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a law suit
98. Owned a cell phone
99. Been stung by a bee
100. Read an entire book in one day

I’ve thought about it alot recently and I really want to purchase a Vita Mix Blender..

Ever since I’ve started eating Acai bowls and started making my own baby food, It seems pretty much like a no brainer.

My baby food now comes out a little chunk and not as “good” as I’d like it.  This thing even does POI and has the strength to make HOT soup!!  How nuts is that?

I’m on the hunt for the Vita Mix…

It’s on like Donkey Kong!!

We have another competition with decorating with another section in our department…

They have NOTHING on us baby… NOTHING!!

I’m so glad I’m off on Friday.  I plan on hitting up some of the malls and WALMART!!! They have some stuff I want on sale for really cheap, so I plan on taking full advantage of that.    I’ll even see if I can do my shopping online.  Hopefully the shipping isn’t outrageous.

I’ve never done this before, but it’s so easy!! I’ve started making some of Shelby’s baby food.  She hasn’t tried what I’ve made, but hopefully she likes it.  so far I’ve only made carrots, but tonight (hopefully) i can make some green beans and some peas.  CROSS YOUR FINGERS!!!

Last night was horrible.. Completely and utterly HORRIBLE.  I came home from work yesterday feeling all achey and bleh…  I was also cold, that never happens when I’m at home..  So I change clothes, and I get everyone all squared away.  Then I put Shelby in her Exersaucer, and I lie on the couch…  I’m shaking because I was so cold.  I tried to pick up Shelby, but she felt so heavy and I was shaking profusely.  I was so scared because I didn’t know what was happening, or why I was feeling that way.

I let Shelby nurse so that she would fall asleep.. I think she did, and so did I.  I had a fever and it broke.  At like 3am, I woke up feeling much better, but still really tired.  Shelby was fussy all morning.  We went back to sleep and didn’t wake up until 6:45AM!!  Holy sht.

I think I need to take it easy this weekend.

If anyone knows of a good play group with babies around 5+ months of age.. Please let me know..

You can email me at rtanaka at gmail [dot] com.
Thanks!

So, last night the little princess and I watched the Elections and all that other good stuff.  I got kinda weepy when I started telling her about the Election and that we have a new President, etc..

In case you’ve been living under a rock for the last 22 months, we have a new President..  Barack Obama was elected the 44th President of the United States.  By a very LARGE (and outright) margin if I may add.

Thank goodness all this election stuff is PAU.